It’s been quite a day. Maude is in the Intensive Care Unit at the animal hospital in Yorkville. During a routine vet appoint this afternoon to treat an ear infection she went into an endless seizure that the doctors were incapable of stopping. In the end they had to put her into a coma. They are slowly bringing her back to consciousness while treating her with new drugs to stop the epilepsy. The specialist says that it is not life threatening but of course, the entire day has been exhausting. Emotionally I am wrecked and I have been crying uncontrollably. Hopefully she will be well enough to take home tomorrow but they suspect that she will have to spend one more night to be sure. Although it is unusual for pets to not be able to come out of a seizure, it is not impossible, quite the opposite. They just have to find the right dosage. I’m trying to stay positive.
I have never had a dog like Maude. She is the greatest, and the thought of never seeing her again is unbearable to imagine. As we were saying goodbye to her tonight her ears perked up and her eyes opened. She knew we were there. I love her. More than anything. Please, if you read this, send good vibes.
It was rainy at the beach yesterday
It’s been a stressful morning. Maude has an ear infection and has been in a lot pain, so much that she can’t sleep. To make matters worse, she’s had three seizures. I suspect a high fever is responsible for them. She is at the Beaches Animal Hospital right now, and the vet is monitoring her activity. She’s hooked to an IV and they’re ready to administer Valium if she has another attack. Jesus. I hate this.
It’s times like these when I think of all the animals in the world who don’t have the love and care that Maude has. Surely there’s an English Bulldog being abused or neglected somewhere as I type this. I wish I could protect every living creature from the hands of human cruelty.
My love for Maude is like a jar full of fish hooks. I can’t just pick up one at a time. I pick up one and they all come, so I just want to leave them alone. In the end I reach in and take every painful one. Love is wonderful, but when someone you love is sick, it’s terrible. I wish I could cope by shutting off my emotions, but it isn’t that simple.
Animals deserve so much love and respect. Maude is lucky.
To distract myself I’ve edited a few photos from my walk yesterday.
No one loves the TTC
Downtown from a distance
Me at the water station. I took many shots before I was satisfied.