the other day i had to sleep in a hotel due to work commitments. anyone who knows me is well aware that i avoid this. i don’t know why i’m such a homebody, considering that i have travelled extensively, but wherever home is, that’s where i want to be.
i find comfort in what i know, and anything that deviates from my normal operations, disturbs my feeling of safety and security.
but i wonder how this has affected my relationships with other people. for example, many years ago i was invited to a camping wedding up north. the mere thought of having to sleep in a tent with strangers drove me to near panic attacks; i simply couldn’t cope.
when i arrived and had set up my gear i was struck with a crippling migraine. again, anyone who knows me understands that i suffer from aura migraines, which are often triggered by stress.
but is all this stress, and my inability to go with the flow, causing health problems? are my migraines a result of my anxieties from having to leave the comforts of my home?
about three years ago i developed a sleeping disorder. on any given night it can take me up to two hours to fall asleep, and i rarely sleep without interruption.
i spoke with my doctor about this and she said that the most important thing for good health is a peaceful sleep. what am i doing wrong? why can’t i shut my brain off?
she wanted to prescribe medication to help me stay asleep, but i decided the best course of action was to take melatonin, which is natural and eases me into sleep on those nights when i’m having trouble.
then i thought about my father who also suffers from migraines and sleeping disorders and i thought it might be hereditary.
then i thought about how short life is, and how important it is to stay positive, even in those circumstances that appear out of my control. no matter what crap life throws at you, make the best of it, and remember, always be courteous and respectful to other people!
i didn’t sleep well in the hotel, but i didn’t hate it as much as i thought i would. granted, i never want to do it again, but at least i coped and got it over with. as best i could.